Loss

One inevitable part of life is loss. Something I've had to deal with often in the past year. Loss of a brother, a friend, a home, a rib. Any kind of loss hits you hard sometimes in different ways and in different degrees of emotion. I'm over the rib, close to over the home, and getting over the friend as we speak. Sometimes in life you just have to let things go. Let people walk away and sometimes after that if you're lucky as they walk away you can smile through the pain because you know that its better for both of you that way. When someone gets the courage to just walk away, even if you don't have it, you both can get what you want... no what you need. It can be like a weight taking some troubles off of you. A complete cleansing of your soul. It can open up your life to a completely new experience that wouldn't have been possible otherwise. It can inspire you to truly live, or to meet someone as good, better or more importantly different to not replace what you've lost (because the wonderful and the wonderfully painful memories will always be there) but to take a place in your heart almost as if in honor of your loss. Life is funny at time when you know you should be crying and screaming and instead you sit and smile. Relish in the fact that you are now leading a life that is just a little bit more simpler and a little bit more about you. Life should really focus on you, some people (me) get too caught up in everyone else to pay attention to myself.

It prevades you
haunts you at every
waking moment
keeps you awake at night
then slides into your dreams
it turns up around
that corner
when you least expect it
it never stops
coming at you
it never lets
you rest
but you grow
you gain strength
you gain courage
and you fight
but no one knows
yet how the story ends