For you

I finally realized that the only way you'll be happy in life is if you go through it for you. You do only things that make you happy even if you're lover, mother or best friend tells you its stupid. Do it. I guess I might be talking to everyone who would think... jeez who's this girl and why is she such a follower. But its not that, it just takes a lot for you to realize that you should do what you want. Usually you have to lose everything dear to you, or at least something you loved dearly. You have to have your will to do anything and everything erased from you. you're natural born happiness taken away. then you have to build everything back, slowly and alone. Its hard, you have no idea what to do or how to do it. you just do everything society expects you to do. And you feel happy and you think its what you want. Then it hits you that you really wish you were doing something else. Then you finally get to sit down and do what you really want after all that time of doing what you thought you wanted...but it ended up just being what you were supposed to do. That's quite a difficult part of living... choosing between what you want to do and what you are supposed to do. You are supposed to go home and visit, but you're not homesick. Where do you draw the line? When do you strike the balance? the only thing you can do is go with your gut.