A World Away

Have you ever felt like you were a world apart from the world? You are happy in your life, and grateful for your achievements and you may even have great friends, but then you realize you are bored and lonely. You know you should probably just be more outgoing and take charge and meet new people, but there's no drive to get you there. You are here, in front of a screen, wondering about your life. Only every so often do I admit my restlessness and loneliness to myself. All I ever want is what everyone else wants to be happy and enjoy what they can while they can, which is a great thing to live by. But life does not come with instructions and sometimes I stray off the path, then I can't find my way back. Now what. It's normal to feel this way when you're away from your "real" home and you are around new people, places and things. When everything is just changing too quickly for you to adjust. But how do I find the balance, how do I get back to that path?

This world is mixed up with all of its fleeting glimpses and dual realities. That person you fell in love with at first sight, gone. The call waiting for you on the answering machine, hang up. Life is filled with loveless love, passionless passion, and painless pain. The last may be the hardest to explain but believe me its there. Maybe the dualities result from too much of a good or bad thing so you just get used to it, or maybe its the true reality. Life is the complex intertwining of so many people and places. How anyone could ever get through it is a miracle.. the good thing is.. so many people have. They may not be able to tell you how or why, but it is possible.

So right now you are staring at a screen feeling like you are alone. Well if that's the case know that I am staring at the screen feeling alone right with you. Life doesn't seem that lonely when you know someone else feels the same way you do. No one can truly change you life but yourself, but all sorts of people can influence you in a way that will make you change your life. I'm just holding on to what I can till I get that passion again; either from me or another. Life is just about clinging to what you know and imagining what you don't until someone else can give you a whirl and teach you something new about your own life.